Spiritual thoughts

I Spiritual thought in the beginning my pray, strive to find the words for how I was feeling doing one of my depressing move. In my life I felt the downs and lows of life doing my life and I never once stood up for myself, but God stood up for me because he showed me with him all things are possible with him which I do believe his every word. All my life I have been poor never had anything to call my own when it came to money, I always wanted to feel what it was to be rich to live the life of the rich and famous. Since from young I never had a life of happiness until I had my children, but now as they are all older it is different for me I should be living it up in the town. In my life there are blocks that stops me all the time like someone does want me to get ahead in life, why? I ask myself was weak I never knew about God until my first meeting. I have always talked about others, never myself, I felt there was no need to talk about the way I felt about others. Although for me it was others passing their opinion of what I should do and what I should not do it have been this way seems all my life. All my life I have tried to become the best and become who I wanted to become from a child my dreams were to become an author writing makes me feel devote, calm, and dedicated to being who I want to become. Although I never was open to myself, but to others I am the truth of the matter never could everyday, why me, what is it that I have they cannot get why is there so much jealous envy that live among only around me. I know that I am safe with Jesus and my holy father, whom teach me to live life as he see. , why me, what is it that I have they cannot get why is there so much jealous envy that live among only around me. I know that I am safe with Jesus and my holy father, whom teach me to live life as he see.